The Art of Sharing

So I’m finally back home after almost a month of constant travels between different cities and states visiting different family members and friends. Of all the trips though, I think I was able to grow the most from my sojourn in Minnesota. Not only was I able to reconnect with all my paternal cousins and get to know them better, but most surprising of all was how much I was able to learn about myself in the process. I managed to give myself a lot of time where I could just be alone in my thoughts with notebook and pen in hand. The whole trip was an incredibly satisfying experience, and I can only hope to have more of the same in the not so distant future.

One thing that seems to come up very often with me is the fact that I don’t and sometimes won’t talk about things unless specifically asked. Even if it’s something I’m totally ecstatic about. For example, right now there’s some news that I’m very happy about, but I absolutely do not feel the need to type it in this blog. But if you just ask me, I’ll gladly tell you anything. Well…just about anything. I always figured that if someone really wanted to know something, they’d just ask. I mean why wouldn’t they? That’s what questions are for. Well apparently most people don’t. For serious though, if I end up in a hospital am I really expected to call up everyone I know and just be all “oh by the way, I’m in the hospital, I guess I’ll talk to ya later, bye”? I’m not even being rhetorical here, I really want someone to answer that. There were so many people that got upset with me for not telling them I was in the hospital. I mean I appreciate the care, but I just think it would annoy them more. But that’s not even what I was first talking about. What I meant were deeper more personal things that constantly bite at your very being until you can’t take it anymore and explode, or in my case, end up in a hospital bed.

So I’ve been to a couple of doctors and they’ve all said I need to learn to verbalize what I feel more. Sounds easy enough. You think you know? You have no idea. Finally I decided to do this whole “sharing” thing more and more but it seems to be just as fruitless as keeping it inside. I mean yeah I’ve had some great conversations with some people, but most of the time, it just seems to make it worse and more uncomfortable. Should I try to vocalize all that I’ve said here right now, I know that I would fail miserably. Thusly, I truly believe there is an art in being able to confidently, tactfully, and eloquently verbalize what you are feeling inside. It is an art that escaped me long ago; which is why I have to resort to writing: the one medium which allowed me to find a voice more confident than any other I might attempt.

I’d like to know what any readers of this blog have to say about this subject. I mean is sharing only meant to be done with a select few? Is there any way to truly give it a universal definitin? Or is it just completely to one’s own discretion?



... I would've never guessed that true romance and Detroit would ever go together

Alex Trebek Is a Vegetarian

according to Statcounter, someone got to my blog by entering that phrase in yahoo's search engine. i felt like i had to share this because it is absolutely hilarious to me. That is all i have to say for now. Current trip and recent contemplations have left me in an almost never-ending state of pensive-ness. Expect a more thorough update soon.

Good Day.


...chewing gum is really gross; chewing gum I hate the most

Hi, My Name Is...

So I’ve been in Minnesota for about 5 days now and I must say it is something that I really needed. Taking a break from the monotonous days in Miami, having to feel absolutely no expectations from anybody, and not having anyone I know besides my extended family around is quite a great feeling. And of course getting to hang out with all me cousins who I don’t get to see as often as I’d like is always a blast. And then there’s Arman: the genius baby of my cousins James and Mahtab. With this new feature on the blogspot of uploading photos, I think I will be doing it more often. Sort of like a “picture of the day” sorta thing. We’ll see how that goes. I’m using my uncle’s computer right now so I’m probably gonna have to take one of his pictures. Ha, what an awesome kid. I mean just look at him.


Anywho, besides the frequent discussions on the mysteries of life and the lessons learned therein, my cousin brought up the subject of nicknames given me in the past. I think I overwhelmed him with the myriad of names I’ve been given throughout the 20 years of my life. So we both decided it should be posted on my blog for all to see. So go ahead and choose whichever one you prefer…cause I answer to all of them depending on who uses which. So here goes, numbered for ease of reading and in no particular order:

1. Mo
2. Mo-Mo
3. Moo
4. Moo-Moo
5. Moo-Man
6. Mooney
7. Moonibaby
8. Cow-Face
9. Mooooo…nib
10. Muniba
11. Moonbeam
12. Meat-Head
13. String bean
14. Bob
15. Twino
16. Mr. T
17. Nib
18. Nibs
19. Nib-Nib
20. Niblet
21. Nibbles
22. Nibbles and Bits
23. Nip-Nip
24. Binum
25. Momar
26. Spider-Man
27. Parker
28. Voozh Head
29. Little Drummer Boy
30. Mun to the ib
31. Mu to the nib
32. Munibian
33. Munibi
34. Munibo
35. Money
36. Monet
37. Muad-Ib (not sure how it’s spelled…that guy from Dune)
38. Monkey Boy
39. Moonster
40. Nibster
41. Munizzle

That’s all I can think of right now. Wow, I didn’t even realize there were so many. If anyone can think of any new ones, or any that I might have left out, feel free to leave comments. I’m always interested to hear of new nicknames. As soon as I feel like nobody can come up with something I haven’t heard before, I get something new. And the ones above are from people who can pronounce my name correctly. I’d have a whole other list of ways my name has been pronounced incorrectly. But I don’t think that would be as fun.


...who knows what evil lurks in the hearts of men

Origin of a Screen Name

Anyone ever have those times when over the span of a few days you seem to get the same question asked by several different people? I actually seem to get it a lot. And this weeks subject has been the origin of my AIM screen name: AnHonestFool. Some people thought it was from Lord of the Rings: Return of the King, cause there’s this one part where Gandalf calls Pippin an honest fool. But I actually got it several months before that even came out.

So I figured I’d share where it came from right here and now because it’s from an awesome song that I have felt compelled to listen to repeatedly once again. It is by the very great band Live and the name of the song is "Like I Do" from the album Birds of Pray. Their lyrics are always amazing and so is his voice. So here are the lyrics to said song with some of the more repetitive parts taken out.

Live – Like I Do
Darling, I feel like a god when I am next to you
Something sacred, someone straight and true
Tell me, do you feel the same way too?

Darling, your face is radiant with the light of love
The kind that’s sent straight down from up above
And now you’re all I’m thinking of
Thinking of

Don’t you give me loving like a revelation
Don’t you make me burn and make me feel the danger
Salutations to the maker of my finest hour
Goddess, queen, mother, sister, lover
Don’t you ever leave

Darling, I feel like a god when I am next to you
Something worth the worship of this honest fool
Tell me do you feel the same way too?
Like I do?

Don’t you give me loving like a revelation
Don’t you make me burn and make me feel the danger
Salutations to the maker of my finest hour
Goddess, queen, mother, sister, lover
Don’t you ever
Don’t you give me loving like a revelation
Don’t you give me love
Don’t you feel the same way like I do?
Like I do
Like I do
Like I do

Man, I told you it was a great song.

...now that we know who you are, I know who I am. I'm not a mistake.

The Book of Munib: Chapter XXXVII - Revelations

So a friend of mine had this on her online journal and I don’t think I’ve ever actually completed one of these all the way. And since I really haven’t felt inspired enough to write anything original recently, I figured one of these things would work great even though it's painfully long. Plus, I’m bored.

SECTION 1 ABOUT YOURSELF
+ Known as: Spider-Man
+ Lives in: a state of confusion
+ School: University of Miami
+ Hair color: black
+ Eye color: black
+ Style: whatever’s comfortable that fits
+ Fears: giving in to temptation.

SECTION 2 HAVE YOU EVER...
+ Cheated on someone? nope...and i don't intend to.
+ Been Cheated on? no
+ Fallen off the bed? Many times. Once on a hardwood floor without even waking up
+ Broken someones heart? Maybe completely unintentionally, yes.
+ Had your heart broken? Yes.
+ Had a dream come true? I once dreamt I was Spider-Man. Then I woke up with Mary Jane by my side and ended up saving a buncha people that day with my web. All in a day's work.
+ Done something you regret? Plenty. But what's done is done.
+ Cheated on a test? I’d rather plead the fifth on this one.

SECTION 3 CURRENTLY...
+ Wearing? Clothes.
+ Listening to? Disturbed
+ Located? on a couch.
+ Chatting with? Tatiana Marie Alba-Machado
+ Watching? The Mummy Returns

SECTION 4 DO YOU...
+ Brush your teeth? I try my best to remember to do so.
+ Like anybody? I like everyone.
+ Have any piercings? Nope.
+ Drive? Total lifetime driving time equals about 3 hours. And I’m being very generous.
+ Drink? Never have and plan to keep it that way.
+ Smoke? Same as above.
+ Got a pager? Used to have one shared with my sisters back in 1994 or 95.

SECTION 5 FRiENDS...
+ Who is your best? I’m still trying to figure out the definition of that one.
+ Who do you hate? I really don’t like that word. But I can think of only one person who deserves that description. And he is most definitely not my friend.
+ Who is the shyest? I think me.
+ Who is the most talkative? Everyone.
+ Who laughs the most? I’m guessing anyone who gets hit with the Joker’s gas. ha.
+ Who have you known the longest? Natalia S.
+ Who have you known the shortest? The people I just met yesterday. Don’t even remember all of their names. I suck.
+ Who do you go to with personal problems? The one from whom I stole this survey.
+ Do you hang out with the opposite sex? yes.
+ Can you keep a secret? Yes. Keeping hundreds as I type.

SECTION 6 THE LAST PERSON YOU...
+ Hugged? Melanie M.
+ Kissed? My dog after I returned from a two-week trip.
+ IMed? No one today. Haven’t gone on messenger in a while.
+ Talked on the phone? Vahid S.
+ Yelled at? Can’t remember.

SECTION 7 PERSONAL...
+ What do you want to be when you grow up? Ophthalmologist…or maybe a writer and/or filmmaker.
+ What comes first in your life? I try my best to make it the Baha’i Faith.
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? Yes. I’ll let you try to guess which one.
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed? What time I need to wake up the next morning.
+ Love your family? Hells yes.
+ Love your friends? Same as above.

SECTION 8 FAVORITE...
+ Movie: Too many. Check out my DVD collection for a few of them. But if I was forced to choose, I’d have to say Hero.
+ Song: too many. None of which include stuff by Linkin Park.
+ Group: Metallica.
+ Store: Best Buy.
+ Relative: I haven’t even met him yet, but I already love Arman to death.
+ Ice Cream Flavor: crunched oreos and vanilla ice cream on a waffle cone.
+ Fruit: Freddie Mercury.
+ Candy: do oreos count as candy? Cause I love ‘em.
+ Holiday: Ayyami-Ha
+ Day of the Week: depends on what is being done on that day.
+ Time of day: pizza time.
+ Color: red and black.
+ Name for a Girl: I think Zaynab is a good name. with a great history too.
+ Name for a Boy: I really like Vahid. Or maybe Jack.

SECTION 9 DO YOU...
+ Like to give hugs? Yes. But only if the receiving end feels the same.
+ Like to give kisses? Same as above.
+ Like to walk in the rain? Yes. But I prefer singin and dancing in it.
+ Prefer black or blue pens? Black.
+ Like to travel? YES.
+ Sleep on your side? Yes.
+ Have a goldfish? Nope.
+ Ever have the falling dream? Yes. But ironically never when actually falling off the bed.
+ Ever flown in your dream? Nope. But I’ve swung on webs that were shot out of my web cartridges.

SECTION 10 WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
+ Abortion: I don’t like the idea.
+ Eating Disorders: sad.
+ Suicide: even sadder.
+ Summer: lack of school. Always great.
+ Tattoos: looks good on some people in moderation. But I wouldn’t get one.
+ Piercings: they’re alright also in moderation. Only one I’ve ever considered was on me eyebrow. But then I turned 15.

SECTION 11 THIS OR THAT...
+ Pierced nose or tongue? Neither.
+ Single or taken? Currently? Single.
+ MTV or BET? MTV’s become crap. Don’t really watch BET so I don’t know.
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? Can’t stand either of them.
+ Sugar or salt? SAAAAALLLTTT.
+ Silver or gold? I’d rather spend the money on DVDs.
+ Chocolate or flowers? Flowers. Unless the chocolate is from Brazil.
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? Depends on the subject.
+ Stay up late or sleep in? stay up late, for I am a creature of the night.
+ Hot or cold? Cold.
+ Sun or moon? Moon.
+ Left or Right? Hah, that reminds me of the Big Friendly Giant by Roald Dahl.
+ 10 Acquaintances or one best friend? Can’t I just have a buncha friends?
+ Mustard or ketchup? Salt.
+ Spring or Fall? Which one’s colder?
+ Happy or sad? Happy. That was a hard one.
+ Wonder or amazement? Wonder seems more mysterious. Which means you get to dig for the truth…which is always fun.
+ McDonald's or Burger King? Burger king.
+ Mexican or Italian food? italian.
+ Lights on or off? Off. Maybe some natural light.
+ Candy or soda? Can’t really have either right now. But 8 months ago I’d say soda without another thought.
+ Pepsi or Coke? Coke…but same as above.

EL FIN!


...we men are wretched things